3 days ago

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Othello is a play about internalized racism, goddammit.

barbotrobot:

It’s not exactly a novel observation I’m making, there, but it’s definitely one I think more people should understand about the play. It’s a large part of why it’s my favorite Shakespeare piece.

Othello has been presented to me in more than one class as a play about the nature of evil and lies, and about the dangers of jealousy. But to me, it’s always been a play about the way a society teaches people to hate themselves.

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3 days ago

If you’re a trans woman navigating western medical and psychological systems to access hormones and more, you often hear about the Harry Benjamin Standards of Care. Harry Benjamin was a German Jewish endocrinologist who could be played by Danny Devito in a film.

But that’s not the image I get in my mind. When I hear about the standards of care, my mind inserts an image of the actor Richard Benjamin, who…

…yeah. 

So I giggle a little bit when it comes up and that laugh helps me forget what a pain in the ass it is to get permission for the things I need. 

4 days ago

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cultureunseen:

BLACK JEWS
(…nuff said.)

Olam echad
Hashem echad
Ha Am echad

This photoset makes me so happy every time it crosses my dash.

5 days ago

Jeff Mills “Purpose Maker Mix” off the “Exhibitionist” DVD. Yum yum.

5 days ago

Just sent admissions at the university a request for an advisory meeting to examine this whole idea of my going back to school and finishing my undergraduate degree.

To say I’m terrified to hear their response would be putting it very lightly.

But: clarity comes at times you’d not expect and my mindset, post-email, has revealed something that I’d never noticed before, something about prayer and faith.

I get how to pray.
I get what one prays to.
I just don’t get the why. What’s the point of doing it, because to me, to my mind, it’s a foregone conclusion: either I’m good enough for it or I’m not. Usually I’m not. 

My God is not personal, isn’t even Malkeinu, Our King who can be petitioned respectfully. God’s too distant for that. I wish I felt otherwise.

But with that in mind, with a distant God and a lack of confidence in self, I find it so hard to ask for things that mean a lot to me.

I wish I felt otherwise.

6 days ago

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Apple’s U2 Album Giveaway

The best analogy I’ve come up with so far in trying to convey how poorly this was handled is a physical example: You buy the ubiquitous EXPEDIT bookshelf from IKEA to organize your records and find that, months or years later, IKEA has let itself in to your flat and added a couple of LPs from some artist (whose music you never liked, in many cases) to your collection.

It’s a silly premise, but that’s basically my objection to it. Give me the option of downloading it? Thanks, but no thanks, and good luck with the new album. Insert it, unsolicited, into my collection? That’s some chutzpah. Yeah, I can just discard those theoretical LPs, and yes now I can completely remove the unwanted album from my iTunes library, but why was this idea given a green light in the first place?

1 week ago

A month into slowly lowering my dosage of antidepressants and I’m noticing little things reappear, such as the “I wrote a vulnerable/creative/whatever thing on the internet and have not received any feedback, ergo I suck” voice.

1 week ago

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SOI Removal

superiorconcha:

eisensteinonthebeach:

After blowback from everyone in the world who doesn’t like U2, Apple set up this link which removes Songs of Innocence from your library.

I did it and I’m so glad I did.

I did this (also glad) and immediately thought of the episode of the Simpsons where Homer is running for Springfield’s dept of sanitation manager and he crashes a U2 concert. Bono: "Hold on! He’s talking about waste management, people— and that affects the whole damn planet." 

The joke here being that U2’s new album is the waste, ha ha. (Rolling Stone gave it 5 stars wtf)

1 week ago

1.

I’m cleaning out old directories of unfinished music projects and it feels good to let go of that accumulated material.

Don’t get me wrong; it’s not all drek. I’ve harvested the best bits and can drop them in to a new project down the road without having to reinvent them from scratch.

I used to hold on to these projects because What-If Some-Day Just-Maybe… but nah. It might have happened, I might have finished those songs one day, but I chose to cut them loose and move on. 

Now I have an additional 20GB of unused disk space. That’s 20GB of potential.

Time to start filling it up.

2.

I organize my music projects by genre, and I name the directories after the city that best represents those genres. House music goes in “Chicago”; my rap beats have all ended up in “Brooklyn” even when they’re broader than Bed-Stuy. 

I’m not sure where the current crop is going to go. “Berlin” might work for the dub techno I’ve been churning out lately, but I’m not sure what will work best for the minimal dark industrial beats that seem to come forth late at night. 

My world is a map of music. My music is a map of the world.

3.

Finishing the music isn’t the point, has never been the point. Making it, getting lost in it, is all that matters. I’m not a songwriter. I design sounds, create atmospheres, and build collages. I make them and then let them pass, like the weather. One stormy day might be followed by calm, or it might be another downpour, but the impermanence of it all is understood going in. Let it wash over me, soak me to the bone, and see what happens.

1 week ago

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astronomifier:

rachelhaimowitz:

obsessionisaperfume:

deadcatwithaflamethrower:

queensimia:

palavenblues:

holy shit there is a name for it

Well damn. Explains a lot.

Suddenly I understand some of my fan base a LOT better.  That is Awesome. 

"holy shit there is a name for it" was my reaction before I even scrolled down to the comments.

I just need to keep reblogging this because I cannot even begin to tell you how profound a feeling of YES and THIS and THERE IS A WORD FOR ME OMG I get every time I see this, and I hope it helps others too.

seriously, anytime you see a post with a comment saying “theres a name for it?!” reblog that post because even if it doesnt apply to you any of your followers could be waiting for that revelation.

astronomifier:

rachelhaimowitz:

obsessionisaperfume:

deadcatwithaflamethrower:

queensimia:

palavenblues:

holy shit there is a name for it

Well damn. Explains a lot.

Suddenly I understand some of my fan base a LOT better.  That is Awesome. 

"holy shit there is a name for it" was my reaction before I even scrolled down to the comments.

I just need to keep reblogging this because I cannot even begin to tell you how profound a feeling of YES and THIS and THERE IS A WORD FOR ME OMG I get every time I see this, and I hope it helps others too.

seriously, anytime you see a post with a comment saying “theres a name for it?!” reblog that post because even if it doesnt apply to you any of your followers could be waiting for that revelation.

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