Foxy Brown, 1997
A quote from Joshua Graham (via outdoor-anarchy)
A quote from Lafayette Reynolds, True Blood, “Lost Cause” (S07E05)
I had two customers tell me yesterday that they came to my lane specifically that day because they were hurting and needed to spend a moment in my presence, to have me listen, because I understand and care and they don’t feel awkward telling me things. One even asked for a hug afterwards. These are women— it’s always women— who I don’t even know from Eve.
But I’m used to this. I am a sensitive soul. I see people. Perceptively, intuitively, deeply. I can read the dance of withheld emotions across a face before the owner of that face hides it with a forced smile. I can hear the subtle creak in a too-tired voice that belongs to someone who wishes she could stop running for just a day.
And what I do when I hear these things, see these thing, feel these things, is I invite those suppressed souls to express, if only for a moment.
I am glad to do this. I am most satisfied when I can serve in this way.
But that invitation doesn’t usually extend to myself. I cannot hold up a mirror and serve as confessor. I can feel, oh can I ever feel, but there usually is little relief for me afterward.
I am raw, and I am so easily overwhelmed. I love others so easily but find it so hard to love myself.
I’m not sure if I simply don’t have a strong grasp of what it means to love one’s self. Is it fixing things, making them “better”? I don’t make things better for these women, only slightly easier to bear. How can I ease my burden?
important. watch how you talk about the violence in chicago; understand where it really stems from. if you are blaming communities, get the fuck outta here.
Ok just a little distracted by how much this looks similar to JD Nicholas in the 2nd verse of the Commodores’ “Nightshift” video.